bebeh saye yang paling indah

17 februari 2012...

saye penah ade bebeh... da one yg penah saye cuba nk takel satu ketika dulu...
da one yg saye penah suke dalam satu tempoh waktu... (okeh masih suke smpi skg... tapi..... mgkn takde jodoh kan?jadik.... saye sanjung dan kasihkan die sbg sahabat yg saye sgt syg) humm sedeh plak....

so we had a chat.....
i confessed... ape yg happened to me for the past few weeks....
n he seems surprised... sbb mgkin tak sgka kot....
yg saye da move forward.....
i cant believe myself jugak.... not only u....

n bak kata beliau.....
"bulan ni bulan yg dukacita bg saya.... sbb org yg saye syg n kenal akn jadik milik org"

who would have thought that u mite look at the same person exactly the way he looked at you...
who would have thought that we would have da same feelings....

tapi kalau da jodoh, walau sejauh mane pon kite lari.... die pasti akn patah balik dan jadik milik kite....
dan klu bukan jodoh, how strong ur feelings are towards him....
it wont hummm sorry awk...... bukan niat saye nk selindung n all......
tapi....  couldnt find the right time to have the conversation ngn awk....

so sepeninggalan saye nnt... saye harap awk akn baik2 saje....

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yg kat atas ni saye tulis mase februari yg lalu....
dah jadik draft for such a long time....

ni tarikh arini nye cite plak...


29 ogos 2012

after 6 months being someone's someone....
skg mcm makin jelas dgn perasaan sdr...
soal jodoh tak jodoh n all.... (klu dulu, saye akur.... mcm xde jodoh je... tapi skg saye rase saye mau jodoh itu... hahah)

its been 4months since awk dkt tmpt baru....
waktu saye tulis kat ats ni.. awk tak ditukarkan lagi pun...
but now, everything didnt go my way....
except for u coming here....
it was really a pleasant surprise..

but frankly, saye penah pk kan dis...
"kalau la awk dtg bulan januari... definitely sume ni takkan jadik....
atau pn if i did get attached 2 months later, da ending wouldnt b da same...."

saye sgt ralat....
sbb tak dapat nk reveal ape yg patot...
sbb tak dapat buat ape yg slama ni ati saye suruh....
sbb tak dapat nk fulfill my own dreams....
sgt sgt ralat....

bebeh saye da dekat...
tapi saye tak cukop kuat....

sehingga ke hari ini...
saye masih syg kan bebeh saye....

cik xxxx...
u can say what ever u like... mcm ur last comment....
coz i din care.... what u might think...
coz those feelings, bonding n relations...
n my bebeh is all dat matter to me...

thank you!~
“Don't allow your mind to tell your heart what to do. The mind gives up easily” 

To love means loving the unlovable. To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable. Faith means believing the unbelievable. Hope means hoping when everything seems hopeless.